Fan or Follower, Again

I was pretty down last night thinking about what is or may be facing my siblings and I. Primarily I was thinking about my Mom. When I awoke this morning, I started thinking again. They were not pleasant thoughts. For the most part they were dreary and burden laden. But then, I remembered how God has been absolutely ripping my heart out through Kyle's sermons on Fan or Follower. Last Sunday I broke down and wept during his sermon when he told about Elijah burning all his belongings (and they were many, since he was a wealthy man) in front of all his family, employees and the towns people. And also how Elijah slaughtered his cattle and offered all of them up to God in sacrifice. Kyle asked us the question, "Do you know what Elijah was telling all around him by doing this?" He was saying demonstrating, "I'm not coming back." It was then that I broke down and wept. My heart was broken in praise and adoration of God. I said to God, "I'm not coming back." So, this morning as I lie in bed, I asked myself the question, "Am I a fan or follower of Christ?" The answer is "I'm a follower!" And this big smile came on my face, literally. I realized that all of life as a follower of Christ is about letting go. And this is the equivalent of dying to myself as Christ instructs me to do. So, I lie in bed smiling and knowing that God is in control and will take care of all of my concerns. There was an incredible peace that came over me. Praise God.